"I Don't Know How to Love Him" is a song from the 1970 rock opera Jesus Christ Superstar written by Andrew Lloyd Webber (music) and Tim Rice (lyrics), a torch ballad sung by the character of Mary Magdalene who in Jesus Christ Superstar is presented as bearing an unrequited love for the title character. The song has been much recorded with "I Don't Know How to Love Him" being one of a handful of songs which have had two concurrent recordings reach the Top 40 of the Hot 100 chart in Billboard magazine, specifically those by Helen Reddy and Yvonne Elliman,^[1] since the 1950s when multi-version chartings were the norm.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/I_Don%27t_Know_How_to_Love_Him

Talk about torch-songs...

That nice Jewish boy Yeshua ot Notzri must've been quite a guy. He was.

And She--no slouch Herself-- knew it.

She did love him in the end. As he loved Her.

He was a heart so he couldn't help loving Her & everybody else.

That's why the Establishment screwed him. It couldn't handle such an awesome thing.

As Jesus says somewhere or words to that effect: "If they're not against us they're for us."

I could never be against him or anyone like him.

Despite the fact I don't believe in the empirical reality of deities & afterlives.

But...& everyone I know has a big but(t)...as the rabbi also said (or something like it): "If you don't believe in me, then believe in the work I do."

This is the best I can do: Jesus is my brother & my comrade. 

The world would be as it should be--a fit habitation for humans & other sentient beings-- if his message & the messages of those like him in all cultures were joyously reverently used as guidance.

While I have no faith, I do have confidence. I'm realistically optimistic that some day sooner or later people will finally get this human thing down.

That eventually genuine Peace, Progress & Social Justice will prevail on this Earth. And Love won't be a mere commodity, or a 4-letter word. Or a scary thing.

We're just a little slow sometimes. Someday we'll behave worthy of ourselves. No longer like a bunch of horses asses. (To put it politely...)

We had better.

I Don't Know How to Love Him

I don't know how to love him,
What to do, how to move him.
I've been changed, yes, really changed.
In these past few days when I've seen myself
I seem like someone else.

I don't know how to take this
I don't see why he moves me.
He's a man, he's just a man.
And I've had so many men before
In very many ways:
He's just one more

Should I bring him down? Should I scream and shout?
Should I speak of love - let my feelings out?
I never thought I'd come to this - what's it all about?

Don't you think it's rather funny
I should be in this position?
I'm the one who's always been
So calm, so cool, no lover's fool
Running every show
He scares me so.

I never thought I'd come to this - what's it all about

Yet, if he said he loved me
I'd be lost, I'd be frightened.
I couldn't cope, just couldn't cope.
I'd turn my head, I'd back away,
I wouldn't want to know -
He scares me so.
I want him so.
I love him so.

--song written by Andrew Lloyd Webber (music) and Tim Rice (lyrics)